I was going out with my boyfriend for almost a year. During that time period he abused me emotionally, mentally, and sexually. He would belittle me and treat me like I was a piece of crap. At one low point he actually raped me and then as I cried said that he was extremely "turned on" by it. After I broke up with last October for good (we had an on/off relationship at one pt.) he continued to contact me, to call me, and at one point he even showed up at my house uninvited.

I have really tried to get over this whole abuse. And I thought that I was ok with everything, but recently everything has been coming back to me. I feel like I want to crawl up into a ball and just cry. I go to the same college as him and we are unfortunately in the same class (I really can't switch classes - it's for my major, only time its offered among other reasons) and everytime before that class I freak out. Even though my friends are in the class with me and don't let him near me, I can't even be in the same room as him because everything floods back. I actually broke out in a splotchy rash all over my chest.

I feel like no one understands and people think that I should just "move on" but it's really so much harder than that. What can I do? Or am I just being completely ridiculous?