Heartbreak #1 I became a widow in March of 2006. My husband of 30 years was killed in an auto accident. He was my life, my love, my best friend. I married my husband when I was 16 years old, we had 4 children and at the time of his death we had 6 grandchildren. He was my first love, the man of any woman's dream...then he was taken from me.

Heartbreak #2 I waited over a year before I even thought about looking at another man. Then I met a man who works in my area. I introduced myself online to him, we met and became friends immediately. I was told things about this man from people in my community, but I refused to believe them because I admired him so much. He helped me so much to get through a lot of the pain I was going through due to the death of my husband. We became initmate after several months, but the man would never take me out in public. Even though I had a problem with this and let him know it bothered me, he still wouldn't take me out. So, I asked him out...still didn't work. He said, "It would be the same thing." I just don't get it. I fell in love with this man.He talks about a wall. It hurts to run into his wall...but I just keep hanging onto hope that someday things will change. I'm the type of woman who will not go out with more than one man at a time. Should I keep hanging onto this guy? It's been almost 3 years now since we met...O, he does have one other woman that he takes out in public..I saw them together in a cafe and he would not even acknowledge me even sitting across from him.Someone please give me your thoughts...my heart is truly broken.